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the art of relaxation ...

Saturday, November 19, 2005


i walked in. i exposed my body to the surrounding four walls, that protected me from all the evil eyes. the evil eyes that cud be dying to see me in such a state.

i sat down. i felt the stuff accumulated near the exit door. without a single obstacle and with little effort, i let all the stuff pass down the drain, through the little hole. it didnt give me pain, instead that gave me relief. the relief i was dying to feel. but... it was too late! i hadnt realised that it'd pollute the air so much. so much that i held my breathe. i suffered inside the small cell.
 
i looked down. the water was polluted too. damn! all i cud do was to flush it down, hoping that wud help to stop the pollution i created.
 
that was it. i stood up. it was time to fight against the bacteria. and i did! with the guarantee that i'd succeed. finally, i covered my body.

 

that gave me good relief. i became fresh and energetic again.
 
i walked out.

posted by jaheen
2:28 PM

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one week

Friday, November 18, 2005


its been a week since i got employed, life's changed completely ever since. no more do i stay awake at nites, no more am i insomniac either. exhaustion has taken over me, my body and my soul. i sleep early, i wake up early. from the beginning to end, everthings "messed up".

 

life at office? argh! sucks so far. never got to do any work i like.. nothing suitable to me. the staff? am glad they've "accepted" me as part of their "community". the boss? grr! so hard to please! i know bosses, usually, are hard to please! and this time, too, its no exception! sigh.. the work? hmph! i hate deadlines and due dates..

 

back when i was in school, i hardly complete assignments on time. but now, the scene is different.. everyday i struggle, i end up in frustration, i face disappointment, i get demotivated. its today's reality.. phew! i guess this is what office life is all about.. hope things wud turn out to be better in the near future..

 

adios!

posted by jaheen
11:19 PM

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my first day at work!

Sunday, November 13, 2005


ah.. my first day at work.. hold it! i've just recalled some old memories. memories which falls back several years in past... it was back in primary grade. i still remember it. i had to write about "my first day at school", the very first day we attended school, in nursery grade :) every kid used to write something like ...

 

"aharen school ah dhiyumuge kurin baiy keyeemeve. dhen dhabahah foiy thah elhee eve. dhen fenvare eve. fen veree mamma aa ekuga eve. dhen reethi vegen mamma aa eku dhiyaee fihaara asheve. gossa aharen school ah gendhaane milk packet akaai chickens ring packet eh gatheemeve. dhen baaru baarah hingaafai school ah dhiyaee eve. dhiya magumatheegai varah gina meehun fenuneve. adhi varah gina dhuvvaa ehchehi ves fenuneve. adhi school uniform laigen thibi varah gina kudhinves fenuneve. eyge thereyga aharenge ekuveri kudhinves fenuneve. dhen school ah gos vanee eve. eyee varah bodu thanekeve. varah baivaru meehunves ethaa thibbeve, mulhi thanun ivenee kudhin roa adeve. dhen aharenves roan feshee eve...."

 

i, too, must have written something like that, but that was past. today, one decade later, here i am, abt to write on "my first day at work". please excuse me for the lack of skill to make this interesting, for i do not have the talents of writing nor to be imaginative. so here i continue...

 

i opened my eyes. i saw nothing but total darkness. i could not see a single ray of light. the silence in the room was deafening. i turned aside, grabbed my mobile on the side table to see how many nanoseconds were left to get up. but damn! the time was 5.55 in the morning. i had no idea why i was awakened so early. so i just rolled from side to side in bed, thinking if it wud be a gud idea to go back to sleep, or to get up fearing i mite not be able to wake up again. i had to make a choice. a choice that would have an influence on my day ahead. better not ask me how, just believe it. i chose to get up, and i did it. i could already feel my bladder full and about to burst out. but i just couldnt ignore my PC and walk past it. so i sat down, and started my day.... minute by minute passed, and in a lil while later, my mobile alarmed. yes! the time was 6.45 then. i stood up, grabbed the towel and ran to the toilet. and during all that time i just couldnt get one thought out of my mind.. the thought that it was gonna be my first day at job! :p

 

after freshening me up for the day ahead, i started dressing up. unlike the first day of my school, my mum wasnt there. i never had breakfast beforehand, neither had my parents to ensure i bathed fully. and neither had them to dress me up. i was alone, all alone.. i kept telling myself, "jaheen! you're grown up!".  the time was flying by very fast. i wasnt surprised to see mum still asleep, for i knew she must have been really tired packing up stuff for dad who left abroad during midnight. hmm.. anyways, while i was abt to wear the office tie, mum came running, fearing that i would still be asleep. hehe! but she calmed down as she saw me dressed up and ready to leave. then, i just sipped some water and headed towards my office. i wasnt as nervous as i expected me to be.

 

it took just 4 minutes for me to reach office. but got stuck once i reached there. i had no idea from where to get in, cos the main door was locked. but just like how things were going my day since the day began, at that moment my smart-looking boss arrived in. he guided me inside the building and made me sign the staff attendance book. i met a couple of "office mates" there. two ladies, not chicks though. they seemed quite surprised to see me and i knew why! then i followed my boss and he took me to the section where i was supposed to work. there was nobody inside the room, except the cleaner who was busy sweeping the place. my boss, showed me my cabin and said

he'll introduce me to everyone once they arrive. so i sat there, just taking a good look at the room. the place was really new and looked nice. after a few minutes, my chief came to me and assigned me with my first task! my first assignment in the government! :) it dint look very difficult, and i completed it within a few minutes. my next move was to follow my work-mate who took me for orientation inside the place. the people seemed nice, freindly and approachable.

 

after a few hours, i went for break.. i was all silent cos i wasnt "friends" with everyone.. but i really hope i'd get over that soon and become buddies in no time :D

 

talking about chicks, umm.. well.. i just met only one! but the only one was hot enough to make me not mind abt others, as they fit into the category of "ladies" and not chicks or babes :p heheh.. (i bet she'd be reading this blog one day in the future and wud skin me alive for calling her "hot"! :p sorry babe, u're really hot ).. anyways,i prefer not to talk much abt the ladies/chicks/babes, as i havent met everyone YET!

 

time flew by quite fast through out the working hours.. i did go to MMA twice with an office mate for some business, although accounts isnt part of my job :p oh and yeah! i met a school mate, who's now working at MMA. her "smile" was more than enough for me to know that i looked awful in office dress! :p lol.. not to mention i had a tough time with my tie, loosening it all the time to swallow :p

 

well.. abt the works at office, i really cant say much.. i've been asked not to "leak" anything regarding the works and their status.. hehe :p so too bad if u've been readin this to find out what works are going on there.

 

anyways i really did enjoy my first day there. i'm kinda tired of typing this.. sigh! i give up! :p

 

adios!

posted by jaheen
8:50 AM

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me, myself and NCIT

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


BREAKING NEWS!!

 

it hasnt been long since i posted the previous article early this morning.. and now guess what?! i recvd a phone call from NCIT askin me to go there with my ID Card (i had no idea for what).. so i dressed up a bit to make me look "decent" , and headed there, after dropping off my Dad at his office..

 

there i was at NCIT.. welcomed by tis hot-looking chick  who explained me what was going on... i was asked to sign two documents.. next, i was given the "rules and regulations" to be followed at the office.. those rules are somewhat "strict" as i see.. but anyways its okey.. and told me they'll contact me later.. so thats it! i've finally laid my ass at NCIT :p to be precise, I'VE GOT THE JOB! :D hehe.. am kinda excited about it.. cos NCIT rocks (i think).. lets wait and see how things goes..

 

adios! :)

 

ps: i'm not boasting around, i was just expressing my feelings ;)

posted by jaheen
8:48 PM

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the return of me!

 

aah! its me back here bloggin again.. i welcome my own self on behalf of you all :p heheh.. anyways, my blog's been dead for quite a long time.. and yeah i admit i've been sorta in and outta this since i stepped into the world of so called "blogging".. just like the old times, i'm back with loads of new stuff and ideas...


erm.. to sum up what's happened in the past and what i've been upto, i hope its suffice to say "life has changed a lot!" ... its the same old me, but a newer version! ;) my point of view on life has changed dramatically, my attitude has become different.. its not the same anymore :p good or bad, u decide! :p i wonder if this change in "me" has got anything to do with me becoming matured! or am i still the kid whom i used to be?  LOL!

 

well, the reason for my come-back? hmm.. i've been doing a lot of thinkin and observing lately.. and its making me go crazy, cos i've been bottling up my thoughts and not sharing them with anybody or scribbling them all down on pieces of papers... now, i feel its time to "blog" so that i could empty my mind and release my thoughts.. i know "bottling up" thoughts wudnt do any good and neither wud it help improve the scope of my imagination and thinking.. so here i am, ready to pour down anything that comes to mind.. and i assure i'd be posting regularly from now on ;)


i'm still an unemployed lamer wandering around with nothing much to do... but heck! there are times when life of an enemployed becomes busier than one who's laid his ass in a job! :s dont tell me, i know it sounds weird, but its the truth.. ever since "schooling" ended, i've become a busy ass (with nothing to do?) .. i worked a bit (voluntarily! sob!) for some organisation, but now i'm "resting" after ramadan.. i've applied to two organisations for jobs, and i recently attended the interview by one of them.. it went quite okay but am not satisfied with my performance.. anyways, am really looking forward to see them to ring me up one fine morning and ask me to sign up a contract to go work with them :p hmm? enough with my boasting?

 

well, its time to say "tschus" for now, cos i just dropped in here to welcome myself back to bloggin :) and not to write holy crap! :p


tata for now!

posted by jaheen
6:48 AM

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